Just as Human

Just As Human

It is a beautiful  ,,, Mam I open my eyes and see you….

I am in another world ….. where I can see different colors,  heard different sounds …..

At least I can see the light…..

Mam,, I was in the dark but I am now in the light….

My eyes mam contain thousand of questions…..

What is the meaning of life? Who I am?

Where I am? What I mean for this life?

What kind of people around me? Why there are happy?

Did the life mean I will be happy forever?

Mam , Could that mean I will never cry?

Mam,, What is the meaning of being Human??

Mam, Can I open the life door?

Day after Day ……,,,,

I grow up just like the time……

Mam, I fall down once and stand up in other ….

Did that means the life like that!?

Mam, How can I smile? Cry? …. How can I feel?

I feel pain ….. Could  I cry? I want someone hold my hand …

How I can express that?

Mam, Did that I am still strong for the life…..?

… Now I can see many things. Includes

The Sky above me…. The land under my legs…

I am not alone .. Around me pillion of people…..

I am afraid… Mam Did I trust in them….

Who is good …. Or Bad?

Mam, I do not know how I express it but I want them to sit next me.

I want them to listen to me…. Talk to me ….

I want to be stonger…. And have my own memories with these creations who look like me …

Now mam I know many feeling

Hurting, Happiness, Sadness, Fighting , Arguments, and many others….

Every day I know Something new…..

I know that there are many things sad in the world….. and the happiness moments too.

I know there is different time in one day: the morning until the knight…

I know that we need to the Air , food and the water….

I know that the people live for their dreams…..

….. I have my own dream too

I know that I am HUMAN mam, with Big Heart to feel, A brain to Think, Eyes to see, Ears to hear, Hand to touch the things, Legs to walk, and Mouth to talk.

On the other Hand Mom,

I know that there are some people who have Heart but they cannot feel,

 Brain but they do not use it or they do not have it ,

Eyes but they cannot see anything , Ears but they cannot listen ,

they have no Hands or they use it in wrong way ,

or they have no legs or they walk to unknown future.

Mam , I am always ask we  have what Some people do not have.

Why there are poor people…. However there are rich at the same place.?

Why some do not know how to be thankful for what they have…?

How many worlds in this life? And How many faces the human has?

Mam, why there is a stronger and weak humans?

Why there are winner and loser in this life? Why we are not equals?

I know that there are many liars around me and there are many fake things… mam

But the fact that we must live with them….. at the same place.

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I am growing mam with people called friends…

We tell secrets , jokes, lies, ….etc together

There are important to me…. But they learn me .. many things

The meaning of living with others, laughing , forgiveness, fighting, Sadness, sickness,

And I know the bad meaning of living alone….

Mam, If the people are tress or flowers what I can be?

I grow as the time grow too.

Now , I understand the meaning of the money

Money is very scared mam..

Many people killed each other because of these papers.

War, killing , kidnapping, and so on for the reason of money

But still there are many things which are free

The Air, the true honest heart and more

Also, we all live under the same sky without discriminate between each other

And so and so of my story life….

I want to have my own treasures

Family, Friends, Money.. And Long Life….

I don’t want to close my eyes forever….

I want to see the sky… and my treasures every day

I am afraid to close my eyes one day ant knight and I cannot open it again, mam

I want to sleep with open eyes.

I want to see the beauty of the sun at the morning and hear the soft sounds of the birds

How beauty of the life !!!

I am sailfish just like any human mam with long life wish

Now, I become older and see my kids run around me….

One day I was child like them as a stronger for the life and now,

I  am an expert man in the life and have many to advice them

One day my mam called my come my lovely kid and now no one can say it after she pass away

Mam, I am looking away and asking myself

What I still do not know? …. Many

The life is a big sea which have many fishes

My time is over …. And I am older

Mam, the time which I run after my friends….. in my village is over

Where the time when I fall down and you come to hold me….?

It is over and they go the people which I fight with them ,,, and the people who I love them

I don’t know who loves  me or hates  me

I do not know If I have thing to rue about….. many of course …  there are but I can do nothing

The time run away from me ,,,, I am now just an older

Sitting watching from the window…

Waiting for my end… holding a pen writing many things

I don’t know from what I start and what is the end?

Mam, know I am alone…… waiting to my destiny

Now I just can say If the people tress or flowers I will be ….. bud

I was a big bud when I born,,, and grow up and being a green plant…

Then , I become a strong tree, After my leaves start leave me …..

And now I am an old tree ,, which the time will make me fall down when he will walk

My moments and my memories is crossing now when I close my eyes…

My tears come out by themselves….. with many reasons….. that I lost my wish

And I can say the differences between the life and the death is that to have dreams to follow

Now, I stop dreaming……

Now , I just have want I do before….

So, thanks for every moment

Mam, I am ………………

GOING TO THE PLACE WHERE YOU GO…… I AM LOSING MY LIFE….. I AM SAYING GOOD BYE FOR MY LIFE…..

I born once and die once

I just know one thing only

One day I was HUMAN… I grow up as HUMAN…. I LIVE JUST AS HUMAN…..

And I will die just as HUMAN……

ASL J